Today is one of those days I am in more need of As-Salam (The Source & Giver of Peace) more than any other day. Ya Salam You’re peace, from you is peace, so grant me peace.

It rained a lot today. And for some reason I found myself fixated on the rain, listening attentively to and marveling at the sound of each droplet. It wasn’t long before I was suddenly overwhelmed by the awe of Allah. The feeling stayed with me throughout the day.

Not only was I enamored with Allah’s mercy through the rain but also I was struck by the realization of how not in control I was with my own life or anything for that matter. That Allah Al-Adzim, the One who is of perfect and absolute greatness is and will always be in control. An epiphany that felt so heavy for my heart to carry, and left me rightfully seeking for His peace. Ya Salam grant me peace.

And I was suddenly reminded of when He ﷻ said:

Had We sent down this Quran upon a mountain, you would have certainly seen it humbled and torn apart in awe of Allah. We set forth such comparisons for people, ˹so˺ perhaps they may reflect [59:21].

And it all made sense why my heart felt heavy in awe of Allah. A mountain would have crumbled in awe of Him, Dhul-Jalali-wal-Ikram (The Possessor of Glory and Honor, Lord of Majesty and Generosity), what then my little heart.

Alhamdulilah, All praise and thanks belong to Allah. I’m thankful for this sign He sent me, for letting me experience this moment and allowing my heart to taste a little bit of what it means to be in awe of Allah, May He be praised and exalted.

I pray may Allah always allow me to be in awe of Him and that it serves as a means of drawing closer to Him. And I pray He makes me among those who reflect on His signs. Allahumma Amin

With love,
Ibtisam