Do you ever anticipate something so much and then the time comes and you’re just lost for words? I’ve found myself anticipating the last 10 days of Ramadan especially the odd ones of them but then when the night comes, I am so overwhelmed by the majesty of Allah and the power of each night that I am at lost for words; not knowing where to begin.

On this 27th night of Ramadan, which is believed to be highly likely laylatul-qadr, I’m still at lost for words but simultaneous to being awe-struck, I do feel a sense of peace, calm and a reassurance that’s hard to explain Alhamdulilah. A feeling of everything is going to be okay after this. And SubhanAllah, Allahu Akbar it’s raining really hard right now. May Allah allow each droplet to be a sign of the shower of His Mercy, His blessings and an acceptance for our fasts, our prayers, our du’a and our standing in worship. Amin.

Tonight I’m allowing myself to let go, to surrender, to be vulnerable and to yield to His decree putting all my trust and reliance on Him ﷻ. Ya Allah Ya Rahman grant me mercy from Yourself and facilitate my affairs for me in the right way. O You Who Is The Forgiver, You Love to Forgive so Forgive me. Ya Karim I’m not worthy but You’re ever so generous. Do not deprive me and make me among the most grateful servants to You.

Ya Allah You are the First and the Last; the Outer and the Inner and You have knowledge of all things. Ya Allah my tongue may struggle to put together words to call upon You but You’re ‘Alimul Ghayb - The “Knower of the seen and the unseen; the All-Great, Most Exalted. [13:9] You know what’s hidden in the walls of my chest and in the depth of my heart.

Ya Samiʿ, Ya Basir hear and see me when my tongue fails me and my soul betrays me. Ya Rahman make me among those freed of the fire this Ramadan. Ya Rahman allow the Qur’an to be the light and spring of my heart, grant me its companionship in this life and the next and allow it to be a witness for me and not against me.

Ya Rahman Ya Karim, I’m not worthy of Your Jannah but I’m too weak for Your hellfire. So by Your All-encompassing Mercy Ya Rahman, grant me, my parents, my siblings, my spouse, my descendants and entire family the highest of Jannah Al-Firdaws without reckoning. Amin

With love, Ibtisam